When reading blog posts in my reader, I always get drawn in by the life update posts. I love to see what’s going on behind the scenes. I thought that every first Wednesday of the month, I would do a ‘life lately’ post to let you all know what I’m up to in my personal life. I’ll include what I’ve been reading, what I’ve been listening to, places I’ve been, what I’ve been journalling about and general shenanigans! It’s also a chance to find out what you are doing too in the comments! Enjoy!
Life Lessons / Breakthroughs
I’ve spent the last couple of months thinking about my life lately and what I want to change. The last couple of years has been a hard one and has been very hard to pull myself out of a pit of misery. However, things are on the up but I still feel blocked. My social circle is so tiny that it is nearly impossible to fill my weekends up. My love life is nonexistent (granted I haven’t tried to even improve) and I still have limiting beliefs on my career and my dream of becoming a “boss babe”.
Lately, I have been joining loads of groups on Facebook to meet like-minded people and feel inspired. I have also tried different social media apps and have been talking so great people. I never thought there would be a time where my friendship circle dwindled. For me, it was when I moved to University. I made some amazing friends there who I stay in touch with now but started to lose touch with those that I grew up with. Although I stay in touch with a handful, they have all moved on, made new friends and all in great relationships.
This has led me to think about my own love life. I always dread when people ask me whether I am “seeing someone”. There was a time when I was seeing TOO many people but since my last relationship, I stopped trying.
Some of my friends suggest that being in a relationship means that I don’t really need friends anymore because your partner is the one that becomes your best friend and everything. I’m looking for both and I don’t think that’s being picky. Being picky means you know your value, you know what you are willing to settle for and you will not settle for less. I have already settled for less and it was bullshit. It was a waste of time and it was a lot of wasted effort.
It all comes down to confidence; confidence in me, confidence in ditching poor relationships and confidence in the future. The only way I can move forward is to fully embrace the fear of losing the connections I have, regardless of how poor and one sided they are, to let go of the fear of failing again and again, to not be afraid of dreaming bigger than I ever have and face rejection square in the face! It’s about time that I started living life my own way and not shamed into a life that others think I should have. Last month, I really have learnt that I shouldn’t feel ashamed of the life I live or about the things I haven’t got because one day, when the time is right, I will have everything that I truly want.
Easter has flown by and we spent it in Dawlish, Devon. I experienced proper cream tea cakes, which admittedly, I made the Cornish way (jam first and then cream #sorrynotsorry). Milo enjoyed the wet weather and being in the company of hundreds of dogs on Teignmouth beach. There wasn’t a lot open for us to do due to the weather but it was still nice to get away for a few days.
I have been back at work for a month since I returned from Barbados and the weather has been less than welcoming. We’ve had snow, gale force winds and a lot of rain. I miss the warm Caribbean breeze, the rum punches and the weekly movies on the beach! I didn’t explore as much this time round but did plenty of lounging under the coconut trees. Definitely need to explore more Caribbean islands like Martinique, Grenada and St Lucia.
The next travel plans I have is Marbella, Spain for a friend’s hen party (first out of 3 hen parties this year!). I have never been to this part of Spain so am looking forward to where all the TOWIE talent hang out!
Health / Fitness
I have decided that not only am I going to train for one, but I’m going to train for TWO 5k runs this year. I have not ran anywhere since they served gourmet hot dogs at my high school in 2006 so to call this a challenge is an understatement.
The first run is the Pretty Muddy Race for Life near my local park in June. I know a lot of people that have done this and they all say it is fun. It’s also for an amazing cause, cancer research. I can’t wait to run, jump and slide in the mud.
The second run is the Colour Run – another one that is held in my hometown and is by far the one I’m most excited about. Being covered in different coloured powder may seem like a nightmare to some, but I can’t wait!
I’ve been thinking a lot about my health recently as I’ve noticed my weight slowly increase over the last 2 years! I’ve decided that it’s time to make changes, be more active, eat less crap and more goodness!
I’ll keep you updated on my progress, which is very slow at the moment!
Work + career
Since being back at work after my 2 week trip to Barbados, I had that realisation that 95% of people get after they go back to their 9 to 5 jobs after an amazing holiday – what the fuck am I doing here? However this time it’s been different. Last time I spoke to my coach after her amazing bootcamp, I declared that I was going to leave my job in June 2018. I only remembered that the other day as I was going through my course notes and saw that I had written it BIG and in marker pen across the page.
It’s now April and I have that feeling of flight in my tummy. I have the fear of walking into the unknown, especially into a career path I have no idea about but it’s time that I started making money from something I actually enjoy doing.
I’m interested to know who has their dream career right now and how you made the leap of faith? Let me know in the comments below.
Milo celebrated his 1st birthday on the 20th of March. He was super spoilt with a new sheep toy (that he ripped all over the carpet!), lots of his favourite treats and a new harness with a bow tie! He has been learning new tricks like standing up on his back legs on command, giving me his other paw and callback (although we’re not quite there yet!
Reading – How To Be A Badass by Jen Sincero (actually listening to this on audiobook)
Listening to – Bad Vibes by M.O, Lotto Boyzz + Mr Eazi (I can see this becoming my summer anthem!)
Watching – Grace + Frankie season 3 on Netflix (I am obsessed with Frankie #spiritanimal)
Writing about – My BIG VISION! Where I see myself in six months, 12 months, 3 years and 5 years!
Learning – How to train my subconscious mind
Loving – Vanilla candles
Quote of the month
↠ Be more social on Facebook and Instagram!
↠ Catch up with friends I haven’t seen or spoken to in a while
↠ Paint every weekend
↠ 30 days of habit + mood tracking
↠ Get stage one of the new Positivity Mail finished
What are your goals for April and what’s been going on in your life lately?
Let me know in the comments below! Maybe we can help each other out!