I graduated University in 2012 on a high!
I had met some incredible people, I had accomplished a degree and had survived away from home for 3 years.
However, quickly after I graduated real life caught up with me.
My friends started to leave to go back to their hometowns, start their careers or go travelling and build on their long-term relationships.
I, on the other hand, had no plans on what I was going to do next and didn’t even know what I wanted to do.
My financial blanket (aka. student loan) had gone – no more seasonal lump sum payments and no savings.
I had no real break in education – going from school straight to college and then to University. I was exhausted and thought my only options was to get a full time job like everyone else.
5 years in and I was desperately unhappy!
I was trapped in a 9-5 paradox, doing the same thing day in, day out. Seeing the same people on my work commute and talking about the same things every single day. The one thing that kept me going was my relationship, which in 2015 ended in heartbreak and betrayal. It left me feeling lost, insecure and bitter feelings that I rarely had felt before. I had changed into a shy and reserved girl and completely lost my confidence and became depressed due to the intense feeling of loneliness, especially as my home and friends were miles away.
It got to the point where I was unable to leave the house. Every weekend, I was trapped in my flat like a prisoner craving to be released into the outside world. My only comforts were my bed, Cadbury’s Twirl Bites and GTAV on Xbox!
During this time, I tried to change my life and train to be a teacher. I thought this would be my way out of feeling like I did. I studied for my Science GCSE, which I achieved, and I finally got accepted into the teaching course I wanted to go on.
Before my teaching course began, I moved home for the summer to save some money before the mad year began. However, I soon realised that due to my loneliness, instead of saving money by being reclusive, I had spent money on things I didn’t even need. I was more in debt than I had EVER been! So in debt, that I had been refused any further credit.
And when things couldn’t get any worse,
when my household changed dramatically and made the decision to defer my teacher training, I lost my job.
Yep – seriously, talk about shitty timing.
With £1000’s of pounds still left to pay, I thought there was no light at the end of the tunnel and I felt the lowest I had ever felt.
Everyone was out there doing what they loved and I felt like my life was over – I had my glimpse of fun at university and that was it for me.
However, in Easter 2017 something changed.
I experienced a massive shift in my mindset. I don’t know where it came from but I suddenly had energy and determination. I set up a self care subscription box service, something that I had talked about for a few weeks, with no experience, no real plan and no business knowledge but for some reason, I was guided to just start. I started confronting my problems with money and started manifesting the things I wanted the most. I finally faced up to my fears, stated taking risks and strengthening my mindset. My social life improved, money was flowing into my account with ease, 25+% of my debt has been cleared, I ended up getting a new job, passed my driving test and most importantly, my happiness is at an all time high because I started living life on my own terms and not by someone else’s expectations.
I choose on a daily basis what I want for myself.
I choose not to feel lost in my life again.
I choose my own path in life.
I choose to never feel lonely, isolated or reserved.
I choose to live life on my own terms